i don't know what it is...

every time i leave guitar lessons i feel like a little less of a person.
i do not know why or what happens, but it does.
i told marcy that if there's one person i could come close to actually hating it would be that guy.
frankly, i think he tries to make me feel bad.

i have to hold my head up and be strong about this.

maybe listening to ben folds will help. his songs seem to make things better. i used to be able to get that from the Old 97's, but not so much anymore. i hope it's a phase.