i did it

I spoke with my father last night. He was really confused and nervous about it, or at least that's how it seemed to me. He scratched his head alot. I was at least glad to see a bit of concern in his eyes, even though he did laugh at me about it.

I do feel better now that Dad knows, and I've made several phone calls to offices today to see if they will accept our insurance.

Dad said I need to be more pro-active about my life, and he is definately right. I wish I could find a group of friends to hang out with. It's not really about being accepted by society as a whole, as much as it is me wishing I had at least 2 or 3 friends to do things with. It's like I can't figure out how to intigrate myself into these social situations. What's the word? Passive-agressive, maybe? I don't know. Dad and I talked about that word a long time ago, and I am still unsure of what it means exactly. Everybody says that these things take time, and I need to believe them.

I think I am going to go back to Curves, even if my Dad has to drop me off after school or something. When mom and I used to go, before "she hurt her knee", it really was a boost for me, and I felt good about being active.

Managed to get a couple really good sources for my critical paper today, and I have to pretty much rewrite/restructure my entire "research" paper. It's this paper we had to write for Western Lit where you pretty much just write about your research and how that research went, which incedently seems like the biggest waste of time ever.

Oh! In choir today we had to reschdule our concert for November 30th, so if anybody wants to come, it's Nov. 30th at 7:00pm. I am really super excited to get out there and sing. We are doing a piece called "Mass of the Children" by John Rutter, and then 4 or so traditional English carrols. Whoo-hoo! I'm ready to be a diva!